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by Sabael » 20 Dec 2010, 06:16
Over the past 2 years I've been studying shamanism. I've met 2 animals who seem to always be with me. They never speak but they take me places and show me things, I also shapeshift into their form and join them as we travel. I figured they are my spirit guides and my teacher concurred.
Now the kicker... throughout my life there is one creature that has filled me with more dread than anything. I have never had a negative encounter, nor is this creature aggressive or violent. So of course, when she began appearing to me both on the physical plane - quite dramatically I might add, and during my journeys, I had to find out what was going on.
Her presence was dramatically different from the other two. First off, she speaks! Secondly, she is just there, no traveling, no shapeshifting, she is just there. While the others show me things in symbolism that I need to figure out later, she is plain spoken and clear.
She is very eloquent and her wisdom is uncanny. She will come up with something that seems random and a few days later I will be reading or listening to something and all of a sudden her words "click". After over 6 months now of strange encounters, 2 am wakeup conversations, and repeated meetings during journeys and meditations, I finally asked her if she was my totem, a guide, power animal, or what.
She paused for a little while, laughed (as if it was a silly question) and answered "I am the voice of your soul".
Now what the heck is that supposed to mean? She consistently compares my life and circumstances to hers, when I have a problem... she tells me how to handle it based on her natural habits of handling obstacles. The crazy thing is that it all makes sense.
She is a joy to be with, (in non physical) but I still fear her physical kin with a reaction that borders on a phobia.
My teacher, when I mentioned this to her suggested I look into the meaning of this in relation to Celtic cosmology since that is what I am most drawn to. Any ideas or suggestions?
Respectfully,
Sabael